This research aims to read Jerzy Pilch’s diaries and biographies through the prism of his experience of passing, incurable illness and progressing physical disability. An important context for the proposed reading of the (auto)biographical narratives is the notion of destructive plasticity codified by Catherine Malabou, the reflections emerging from studies on masculinities, and above all, an attempt at a (psycho)therapeutic understanding of the voice of the subject that is re/producing himself. Such a juxtaposition offers the possibility of a simultaneous and inseparable viewing of bodily and emotional transformations experienced by the (un)accepting male-subject.